I have always been envious of people who know what they want, go for it, and achieve it. I mean, whatever it is. I am also aware that what I see is often inaccurate.
My partner is a scientist. He went to school, then to grad school, worked in a lab at a university, and ultimately ended up in big pharma (maybe one day I’ll write a post about the misinformation around THAT touchy subject). Maybe becoming a scientist wasn’t his first choice, but it seems that it was “easy” for him to say yes to it.
I on the other hand, have struggled my entire life trying to “find myself”. I am a trained singer and actor, I have a lot of experience in that world on and off stage. Currently I work with a lot of kids music directing cute shows at summer camps and public schools. But over the years I periodically find myself staring out chilly, dark windows at a black and white Bergmanesque sea scape mumbling in Swedish about the futility of existence with the sound of a ticking clock and refrain of Peggy Lee’s “Is That All There Is?” wafting through my brain . WTF?
So, FINALLY, I have found something (which may turn into a ticking clock, I know, at some point) which I find combines so many of the things I love. Now I can create and combine music, digital images, animations all in one form. But man, it is a butt-load of learning. Not that I’m opposed to that. I dig going through courses and learning new software, new ways to create the magic. Cinema (and I suppose books do this as well) messes with time and space. I mean, it really does. I want to play around with that.
Anyway, some people know what they want at 20 (or younger) and go for it. Others of us, need a long running start, lol. I’ve always been slow. I thought it had something to do with intelligence years ago but eventually began to embrace it as my process.
So, at age 60 I am starting a business. Finally, finding something that just might work for me. Something that is mine, that can grow, where I can create and actually MONETIZE it!! It’s all good. As my mother would say, “bloom where you are planted”. Thanks Betty, I think I’ve finally taken your advice. 🙂